Musings

I am not a very good blogger.
I love to write, but for some reason online writing isn't the same for me. I like the feel of the pen in my hands and the different types of stationary.
Which means once again I have failed to do any new posts in...oh I don't know how many days, months.

My life has been super crazy this past month and I feel like things are finally starting to settle down. For the time being. I have a sneaky feeling that this summer is going to be very busy indeed.

The boyfriend and I officiallly have our own apartment. No more roommates!
Even though I am a huge people person it's kind of exciting.
Things have not turned out the way either of us have planned, but I feel that we are at peace with it. The boyfriend much quicker than I however.
It sucks to have your dreams put on hold and hear your other friends talk about their plans (that actually went through), but I know that my life is not like my friends. IT IS MY OWN and unfortunately I don't have full control over it.
I guess God has been beating me over the head lately, trying to get that into my stubborn brain.
So I am determined to try to enjoy myself more and not worry and stress out about life.
Living for God shouldn't be about bills, tests and school.
I know that this next year I'll have to put in more work, but I feel in my heart that I am moving forward in the direction that I want to go.

Back to the new place....
I could post pictures, but I am just too lazy and there are still quite a few boxes that need to be unpacked.
I guess I should start unpacking and washing the dishware :/ or start cooking dinner...

Adios el mundo

Tick of the Clock

Currently feeling: tired, too many things to do

Currently reading: Firefly Lane and The Yada Yada Prayer Group Gets Real

Currently Craving: Mexican food

Currently Listening: obnoxious little kids playing in the pool

3 Days of Freedom starts NOW!

Its been a tough week.
Today has definitely been a bright spot for lots of reasons.


Friday, end of the week.
Three days of no work.
Paid holiday.
Officially hired on to my company and no longer a temp


It does make up for some of the bad points this week. Hopefully when I go to the Apple Store later they can fix my Ipod. (Yes that is one of the bad points)
I plan on enjoying this Friday night with the boyfriend and watch more gLee!!
[Oh, I guess I forgot to mention that I have recently become obsessed ;P]


So looking forward to that and to a lovely Saturday.
I plan on the boyfriend's filthy car as a surprise. (he's so lazy! ;)
and reading all day long. I have a lot of books on my shelf so I'll be busy.
Sigh, I'm so ready to relax.
I thank God for not listening to my moaning and groaning and giving me these blessed days


:)

I Work for Dunder Mifflin

I decided I wanted to talk about my current job. I work at a medical company that deals primarily with supplying wound care to nursing homes. I work at the Corporate Office, where I basically sit at a computer in a cubicle all day auditing documents. I basically work for Dunder Mifflin. There are several reasons to why I feel that the popular series The Office could have been based on my job. First, there is paper everywhere. Tree huggers and environmental groups everywhere would be upset and disgusted. The amount of copy paper and shreds we go through in a week is ridiculous. Two, for some strange reason, my job loves to celebrate on a regular basis. My first month there we had a Valentine's Day potluck and when I arrived at work, most of the cubicles were covered in red heart garlands, etc. The next month  people had decorated their cubicles in green for Saint Patrick's Day. Also birthdays of co-workers always include a giant cake, their cubicle completed covered in confetti, birthday signs, balloons and of course a card signed by everyone. I probably sign a card for someone [I don't even know most times] 's birthday about once a week. Im not exaggerating, we have a lot of employees.
We have had a bridal shower, as well as a baby shower, for two of our employees. The office was decorated for both events and were held during break times.

Hence, why I believe that one of my bosses is really the character Michael Scott.
If I find any of my office supplies floating in jello in the next month, then my feelings will be confirmed.

Anyways...
Today at work, I was so tired I drank an entire cup of sugar-filled coffee and it had only been an hour of work [which unfortunately is 8 a.m.] Most of my peers were still drooling on their pillows.
 This coffee was was unsuccessful because my exhaustive state of mind created the following delusional fantasy:

The office is as quite as a library. This however is considered normal in the work place. Everyone is plugged in; plugged into their computers, their Ipods, their own little worlds when suddenly music fills the air.  


"Everybody get up its time to slam now, we got a real jam going down. Welcome to the Space. Here's you chance, do your dance at the Space Jam...alright..."


People jump up from their desk chairs and start dancing erratically. I look to the cubicle on my right and the girl is dancing on top of her desk. A "soul train" line is formed down the hallway.
As the next song starts to play, It Takes Two by Rob Base, cardboard suddenly appears on the floor as co-workers start to break dance. This scene is followed by lip sinking of  dancing on lookers.


OH YES,  I was that tired and my job is THAT boring.
Definitely made me smile and do a little skip to the copy machine though.



Thank God, only one more day until the weekend.

Short Walks & Bible Verses

You could say that I am a little obsessed with journals or that I have a passion for notebook collecting....

Its probably both. This shot isn't even counting some of my smaller, pocket/personal sized notebooks. 

The green one is the newest addition. I saw it at Rite Aid and just couldn't resist. Even though two or my existing ones are blank and two are barely written in. 

I just love writing and words and the pretty stationary products that encompass it. 

I was feeling a little lost today. It wasn't the best day at work, and when you don't really like your job, you want to maximize your "at home time" as much as possible. Which is why I think I was frustrated. I was in a bad mood and wanted to make the most of my evening. So sitting around in my room alone was not satisfying...

I ended up walking across the street to my bank and then on to Rite Aid to discover my new green journal and by the time I got home, I was feeling a little better in spirits. Plus I caught up on some of the devotionals I have been neglecting which also helped. There were five of them titled "Growing Stronger Through Change", which I was supposed to read May 10-14, (whoops) that I really felt reflected how I have been feeling lately. Today's devotional was really inspiring:

"To will and to act according to his purpose." -Php 2:13 (NIV)

God's Customized Plan for Your Life

God is committed to His plan for your life, not yours! You can't say, 'Lord here's my plan; bless it.' He may, but He may not. "He...created us...so we can do the good things he planned for us" (Eph 2:10 NLT). You can't say, 'In this category I'm doing things my way, but in that category I'm being led by God.' No, every step you take must be synchronized by the beat of the Holy Spirit. Nothing should be more important to you than keeping pace with Him. Paul writes: "For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his...purpose." (Php 2:13) God works through you as you open your spirit, engage your mind, and use your talents, to do what He's already put into your heart. The moment you say yes, He gives you the power to perform His will. Notice, He doesn't reveal His will, then call you. No, He calls you, and as you step out and obey Him He reveals His will to you step by step. Each day God is molding you into a greater likeness of His Son. That's His objective. You're not out for a stroll, you;re going somewhere! Over and over again you'll be put into situations that mature you to the point where you have the same attitude, the same perspective, the same responses, and the same discernment as Jesus. Once you understand that, walking with God will take on a whole new meaning. You'll realize his customized plan for your life is the only plan that will ever satisfy you.

I wonder how people can know so much, or just say things that totally speak to me sometimes...

Anyways, I ended up talking to my mom for almost an hour and it looks like the organizing of my journals is not going to happen tonight. I am definitely going to start back on my prayer journal though.

Good night world.

A Stroll Through Old Town Orange

The boyfriend and I had an lovely early afternoon in Orange the other day. Its days like these that help maintain my sanity :) We at this amazing brunch place, The Filling Station and then walked back to our car. Which became an adventure in itself because there is NO parking by the restaurant. There are the cutest little houses and this awesome old movie theater that is now a church.

If you're late for church, you could sneak in the side with these stairs. Isn't it so vintage :)

I just couldn't deal with going to work that day, so brunch in Orange was definitely a pick-me-up. I love this shot while we were eating. Makes me want a more professional camera.

He's such a model ;P

Friday

Happy weekend!
It was a good end to the work week. Today went by fast, I got some cheap Chick-fil-A and we pretty much stopped working at 3:15 to enjoy root beer floats until it was time to go home. My bosses are awesome :)
I enjoy my Saturdays so much more now that I work full time. The work routine gets so monotonous. Some weekends I try to make epic plans, and others I just want to relax and enjoy the solitude.

This weekend will be pretty mellow and among all the errands I have to run hopefully, I will find some time to relax on my new bed spread with my cat who seems to have taken up residence there.

I want some things to start changing in my life.
First of all, I want to get into a graduate school. ANY graduate that I applied to will suffice. Thanks.
Also, going along with admission status I would like a place to live for the next 12-15 months.
I would like a job that I care about enough to go to everyday and to be able to afford more than a studio apartment in the "hoods" of Orange County.
Basically,  I just want my adult life to start. It'll be a year out of college in June and although I work full-time, not much is going on in terms of my goals post-college.
A couple things that I want to work on, in order to prepare myself for the next steps in my adult life are being more patient and faithful. During a discussion with the boyfriend on such matters he quoted Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding."
So simple, but oh so hard to do.
I've been struggling with a lot of things lately. Mostly involving my new journey with God, work and graduate school dealings. These last twelve months have been a year of changes that is for sure.
After giving it a lot of thought, I decided to get baptized during our church's 40 year celebration.
Since my only baptism was in a Catholic church when I was a baby, I feel like this is a good step toward full dedication and commitment to accepting God in my life.
Which means I have a lot of work to do, emotionally and spiritually to prepare for next month.
Makes me a little afraid, but I know that any transformation isn't easy and I feel like I need to do a lot more reading in the Bible to prepare. It'll be a good day though.
Today has been such a weird day. The crazy summer weather, and I just feel pretty apathetic about everything.

Blessed Life

So its the day before Easter Sunday.
This week was a particularly rough one, so I am enjoying every once of this Saturday morning.
Especially after watching Passion of the Christ last night (for the first time) made me realize how selfish I am for complaining about my life. 
Jesus went through so much horror and pain in order to take away the sins of the world. We are not worthy.






I'm excited to be dyeing eggs with friends later and decorating our sidewalks with fun Easter colors :) I'm so thankful for pretty mornings and good friends.




:)


Pictures to follow.

back from hiatus

A brief update of the last three moths of my life:


January
-the boyfriend and I celebrated three years together on the 26th
-after being laid off (a week before Xmas) I started a new and now current job


February
-continued MSW applications
-had an amazing Valentine's Day weekend with the boyfriend
-started up a small group with some of girls from my church [who are now becoming more like sisters, i <3 you guys]


March
-finished all grad school apps :)
-started going to the gym regularly [shocking, I know]
-discovered 85 degrees Bakery [definitely a set back for my health goals]
-Church retreat
-Visited home & the boyfriend's b-day


Now its already April and in 2 months are lease is up! Where will I be moving?
I wish I had an answer to that question. I still have no idea because I haven't heard from any of my 4 grad schools
Its getting very frustrating

A Fresh Start in 2011

I'm sure there have been lots and lots of New Year's posts on the internet. I guess I will be following the same trend today, but for good reason.
2010 was a very difficult year for me and I went through a lot. Even though I went through my share of pain I feel like it was worth it. I grew up and matured more this past year than in my whole college career. I was able to reconnect with God through the love and support of friends and family. I learned a lot about myself while going through unemployment and job hunting. I am glad however that the year is over.
After a shaky start to the year I feel that it is time for me to do better. Be a better person, physically, emotinally and spiritually. This has a lot to do with my resolutions for this year.
I usually have resolutions but I don't really take them seriously. Probably because I don't even bother to write them down. So here are my goals for the new year 2011:

Starting and maintaining healthier eating habits
Keep a regular fitness routine
Stay confident and try my very best at my new job
Read the bible and pray every day
Floss everyday
Complain and criticize less...especially to my boyfriend

Wish me luck!
Hope the week is going well for everyone