Why is it so hot?!

I actually have some things to talk about today, isn't that exciting?

Although honestly, who am I talking to because the only follower is my boyfriend and I don't even think he reads this. I think he just clicked "follow me" to make me feel better. I guess that's okay because that's one of the many reasons I love him.

I really miss Bay Area weather. Right now its probably starting to cool off as we head into September. Instead I am stuck with this crappy orange county weather. It is way too hot, i mean i had to unplug Narius' heater so that his water wouldn't start boiling. Narius is my betta fish that I got last september.

For those of you that don't know I am OBSESSED with animals. When I was a little kid i wanted to be a veterinarian so bad! Then I found out that it required a lot of math and science-two things I wasn't the best at, so that dream died.

So I have to share this picture because it is just too adorable.

That little fur ball is my cat Snickers who has inhabited this world for the last eleven years. She is my little diva that loves attention and gets extremely jealous when she does not get it. The pair of legs she is chilling on is my boyfriend ;) She lays on him all the time and of course he loves it ;P

So, moving on....

Its weird seeing all the back to school stuff around because for the first time in the last 17 years, I am NOT going "back to school". Pretty amazing how much education takes over the first twenty-something years of your life; and I'm not even done yet!

This break from school is nice, but I must admit that I will be happy when next August rolls around and I will be settled in at some University getting ready to start graduate school. *fingers crossed* !

I had the entire weekend off from work this past weekend at that was awesome :)

We had a little get together on Friday night to send off one of my subleasing roomies, back to his hometown in New Jersey. It was pretty fun and I had way too much! I was so happy when I could finally eat food again on Saturday night. I went to In-and-Out burger and it was amazing!

Sunday was pretty mellow. My boyfriend Ryan and I went to this new church and it was really nice. The people there were super friendly and I really liked the atmosphere. Ryan was talking about wanting to find a new church [we don't like the old one we used to go to] and I didn't really feel like going [i never do, lol] but I'm really glad he talked me into it. We're going to go back next Sunday.

I was so bad on Monday. I slept in til almost 2pm! After Ryan got off work we went to Disneyland and by the time it was almost nine o'clock we were really tired. My feet were hurting so bad that I didn't mind missing the fireworks. Our annual passes are almost expired so we'll being going back soon anyways.

The one problem with going to Disneyland is that my ankles & feet were killing me today at work. My bff Courtney wants to go on Thursday but I don't know if I can handle it!

I know it may take time for things to start going in the direction that you want, but I am starting to get impatient. I have been searching for a new job for over 3 months now and my parents aren't any closer to finding jobs either. Its just so frustrating! I guess that's why its a good thing I found a new church. I really need to put my faith in God and ask him to help me be patient. I know in the end things will work out but it's very hard to not know when that endpoint is.

Going back to the church thing, I do feel that it will be helpful for me. I always tend to be lazy when I do things by myself, so being part of a community will be a good thing.

I guess I just keep waiting for things to be settled so that I can start enjoying my year off from school. What I am starting to realize that this year off may be the hardest year that I have had in a while. I may just have to accept that things are going to be hard and I can't keep on waiting. I just need to make due with what I have been given.

My thoughts have really been bouncing around tonight...

Oh well. I think I'm going to go soak my aching feet :)

By looking at the date, I've realized that I am averaging about one blog per month. Which is pretty pathetic. I've thought about posting things once and a while but I never feel like I have much to say about that day.

Today i went to the library with my boyfriend and they had stacks of free books outside. Now, normally all of these books are either encyclopedias or books from the 80's with weird colored covers, but they actually had some good ones. I picked up a Study Bible, Jodi Piccoult's My Sister's Keeper and In Her Shoes by Jennifer Weiner. I'm definitely pretty satisfied with this find. We also went to AT&T to look at phones because my upgrade is coming up. After checking them out, there wasn't many that I liked, we went to Best Buy and the same phones were either free with activation or $100 cheaper. AT&T is such a rip off! I knew they were bastards...

Anyways, I still haven't decided between the Samsung Impression or the Solstice. I have a few more weeks to decide though. I know I will be very thankful to get ride of my piece of shit LG Shine that's for sure.

Did I mention we go chili dogs as a early dinner? Mmmmm so good :)

So I must say that today definitely put me in a better mood. Even if its only temporary, it's nice.

Wednesday Night Ramblings

I guess I haven't gotten used to actually having a blog yet. Especially since its been a little over a week since I finally got it up and running with my first post. Oh well.

I guess people could think that my life is so busy and full of exciting things that I don't have time to write everyday. Oh how I wish that were so; instead its mostly because I forget or am caught up with something.

Sooo, change of topic.

I really wish I could go on vacation. A REAL vacation. One of my favorite people in the world, my ex-roomie Courtney, is going on vacation with her family for two weeks and I am so jealous!

I haven't had a vacation with my family since Mexico in 4th grade. Isn't that pathetic!

One thing is for certain, when I am finally done with school and have a real job, I am taking my family on vacation with me. I would love, love, love to go to Europe. :) Maybe I'll be lucky enough one day to go.

Of a few things I am certain.

1.) I am a very moody person and my current circumstances has definitely made me more so.

2.) Also due to my current circumstances, I have been easily jealous of my friends and all of the wonderful things they get to do. Its not like

I'm moaning because I can't go to Vegas or something. (That I would be a normal complaint by me)

Lately, I've been jealous of them going out to dinner with friends, or buying super cute Guess purses. Little things that I can no longer afford :/

Its funny how you go off to college and find out what its like to be one your own and poor. Then you graduate from college and become

absolutely broke. Hmphf...I definitely didn't see that one coming.

(Side note: If you are confused as to what my "circumstances" are I will quickly fill you in. About a month and a half ago I was scammed by an internet company and quite a large sum of money was taken from me. Moving on...)

So yes I've become jealous of my friends. Ugh! I am trying to think of the positive side to my dilemma and I have realized that I really have taken for granted all the little things.

These days it doesn't take

as much to make me happy. Being able to pay bills would make me happy. Being able to have money left over would also make me happy. Not necessarily to buy clothes and something sparkly. More like fresh groceries or dinner and a movie.

I've learned how to cut out absolutely everything that is not absolutely necessary.

If anyone is a shopoholic, one way to cut that habit is to definitely cut the money source.

That will definitely do it.

But oh how I miss shopping!! Although I must admit, I don't crave the frivolous stuff anymore. I actually just enjoy shopping for what I need now.

I think I am done ranting for tonight.

I could have made this post much more organized and concise, but I'm out of school!

I'll save organization for graduate school :)

Today is an interesting day

Most days I'm at my meaningless job, exhausted and stressing over bills that I can't pay. Or I'm at home after working at my job for 8 1/2 hours, cooking dinner, which is one of my few escapes these days.

There is something about cooking that makes me happy. Maybe its the fact that I created something delicious and pretty. Or it could be the satisfaction of seeing Ryan gobbling it down and calling me a good cook ;)

Either way, I love to cook these days. Which my family finds completely hilarious since not only did I not know how to cook most things growing up, I burned eggs. Yep, eggs.

So you could say that I have come a long way.

Back to today.

Usually Mondays means a slow day at work and barely making my sales goal. Instead it means sitting in my apartment, not sure what to do with my time because I have today off, and tomorrow. Its a weird feeling. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind having a job and I desperately need the money but I just can't stand the one I have. Is it so much to ask for a place to work that I enjoy being at for more than six hours at a time? Or a place where I actually have some responsibilities and my intelligence is actually being used? I guess it be asking for too much right now, especially the way the job market is.

As a college graduate, I just expect something more than selling shoes.